being on the DL

its wednesday june 10th, 2009. 

i have been unemployed for three months now...

occasionally i work on call at MCC thrift store, but havent been called in as much lately...

i sit around...

make myself busy with wedding plans (flowers,invitations,seeing people i know)...

i want to feel like i am accomplishing something...

i want to feel free...

but the more i get into this, the more i have to stay...

budgets,payments, loans, basement suite, wedding dress, birth control (Which the side affects suck). 

i am in it for the long haul...

AND I'M PUMPED, scared, nervous, ready, not ready, excited, happy, just a copius of words.

and so this begins.

wake up, startled by the alarm (which i usually wake up before it starts but considering my cough attacks last night, i can see why i didnt). get up, knowing i am going to be at work in twenty minutes. no roommate, she has started a job i know i can't do (cheering her on!). get dressed, accidently pick a scab, walk into the living room to find my computer, other roommate has a friend over sleeping on our futon, so i try to be sneaky. come back to my kids bed with drawers underneath, sit down, check email, check facebook, check you. think about brad, pray a little prayer. 

now here i am...

super profound and ready to take on a day full of bargains and cleaning. hopefully a little laundry this evening. 

Carla

blogging it up.

so i decided to start this thing, i have a lot of moments where i just want to write. write out my thoughts, my feelings, my actions. knowing this is somewhere for people to see, but not having to respond or wanting to is great! here i am world! lets begin this thing called...

blogging.